Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

MIA

It's been 2 months since my last entry and I'm desperate for things to get better. I've been in a downward emotional state since the second week of February and I have been spiraling ever since. I can heavy-heartedly say I am depressed.
But as of today I am going to get back on my feet again. I feel I should explore my interests in the paranormal and ghost hunting. For I have come across situations in my life that have proven to me that I have Electromagnetic Hypersensitivity (EHS).

I would love to experience myself ghost hunting in Molly Stark Hospital. As of right now the image of the first time I laid eyes on that enchanting place. It was a full moon night and the atmosphere was mystical to say the least. I've heard stories about one of my old pals sneaking into the hospital and even walking through all floors basement to the rooftop. I can only imagine..


I pray there is still time for my dream to be met, I wish to save this place from the wrecking ball.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Numb and Dumb.

So two days ago my boyfriend John, told me he was moving out to go live with a co-worker Cj so he could help him out financially, hopefully start our lives outside my grandma's house (where he had been staying for a year now). At first I really didn't know how to take the news, I mean I have a few abandonment issues from my past which makes me afraid that someone I love/care about will never be heard from again if they decide to leave. I blame my mother.
It's not like we're breaking up. Just that we got a little more distant from each other.
So, here I sit alone. I just hope this tad bit of green he gave me lasts.

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NEWS Flash!
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In the beginning of March 2012 I ended our relationship of a year and a half.
I could no longer take the one sided-ness of it all. He ended rasing a lotta red flags and I tried to ignoring them because, of course no body's perfect but there's only so much one person can take from another. And I shouldn't have to deal with bullshit for as long as I did. Moving on with my life now as best as I can.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Happyface.

Today started out dull and then became awesome! ^o^
First off I exercised for 15mins on my lower abs and I found a great video that really helped with my workout.
http://www.ehow.com/video_4818618_exercises-lower-abs-equipment.html


Then after I peeked out to the mailbox to see mail had come and two Gamefly games came with! I never had gamefly before (my boyfriend just signed up, love him <3 ), so I was a giddy as a small child to pull them from the mail and quickly run inside giggling like crazy. -w-
I got the two most available games at the time, from our list. And here came Red Dead Redemption and Mortal Kombat! Whoo! You now know what I'll be doing for most of the day. ;)

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Suckerpunched!

I finally was able to make a stop at Rue 21 after a stop at the grocery store My my, what a fun place! :)
Clearance was amazing (since I am a bargin hunter) I got a great catch.
 When I first seen this shirt I was leaving with it no matter what. Good thing it was one of the things on clearance. ;)

I'm so happy. >o<
 ~ <3

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Blog or online diary?

So typing the last post I was approached by my boyfriend John (who I've  been with for a year now), and he asked what I was typing. I replied with a smile, "I made my first blog! It's kinda like a diary you know?" And he simply replied, "That's so gay, you shouldn't do something like that."  
I felt so offended because when we first got together he made me delete my facebook, which really turned out to be a huge ordeal with him. He even deleted his, (we met on facebook). But as time together goes on I realize he has terrible anxiety and feels he has to keep me from everyone HE feels is a bad influence. Okay, I'M a big girl I can make good judgments on my own without him trying to choose and pick what friends I can hangout with. And the other night when I first made this blog drew the line. I have a life. And I like to type down thoughts and events that interest me. It makes me feel like I'm alive, since I'm only allowed to sit a home a wait for him to come back from a 16hour day of work. Writing a blog makes me feel...human you could say, haha. So he can suck it. I promise to myself that I will keep this blog alive!